Some of you may have noticed recently that my name changed to MsGoldbloom. Well after 23 years together Jose and I have decided to end our marriage. It wasn’t an easy decision and for the last year and a half I’ve been stressed out and depressed which is why I wasn’t posting much. At this point in our lives though we just disagree about the direction in which we want to go. We don’t harbor any animosity towards one another and we’re determined to remain best friends throughout and after the divorce. It’s kind of sad really, for many years in our marriage we felt as if we were soul mates, but somehow in the last few years that feeling has faded. However, we still have love for one another and we still feel like best friends, but we just can’t seem to function well as a couple anymore.
So a few weeks after the school year ends I’ll be leaving for Alabama with little Jeremy, while Katira and Lil Jose will be staying behind with Jose. We still haven’t told Lil Jose or Jeremy yet, we figured we’d let them get finished with this school year first. Unfortunately Katira overheard us talking about things and figured out what was going on, but she seems to be handling it pretty well. Jeremy and I will be going to stay with Mr. & Mrs. Dragon for a while, and I’ll be going back to school. I’m quite literally a bundle of nerves, but I’ll get through this, I have to for Jeremy’s sake. I’ve spent almost 2 decades taking care of kids and family, so I haven’t been able to really use my degree or pursue any type of career. I’ll be starting all over again from ground zero and it’s a pretty frigging scary thought! Just yesterday when I was having my name removed from our accounts I felt like I was erasing myself from life, but Jose reminded me that I’ll be adding myself to a new life in Alabama…I can see that positive thinking is going to be a MUST throughout this process.
Anyways I just wanted to let you guys know what was going on with the name change, and also give an explanation as to why I haven’t been posting much this past year. Thanks for listening.